[ she just typed "not here" lmao. anyway there has to be someplace in here they can go to talk where the others don't have to hear, so that's where ochako's going to avoid further teasing :(
elsa doesn't have to follow but IF SHE DOES... here we are. ochako just sits in a corner with her cheeks a little puffed out in frustration. ]
[elsa sits down next to her, and folds her hands in her lap, and remains silent. she'll let ochako take the lead on this, since she's already done enough ribbing.]
[ she may or may not have already done that but the thread hasn't gotten that far yet, so she waves a hand vaguely.
Don't all of us want that, though? It's not like any of us really want to mess this up... except maybe the ones who we're trying to catch. And even if that is true, that's no reason to act like he does... faking smiles like that. ]
I think so—or, at least, I hope so. But I think he may have his identity built around usually knowing where all the pieces are... and so, maybe he's struggling a little at the moment.
[ how, she wonders, does that fit into the line of conversation? it's a little confusing, but ochako isn't sure how to ask about it, so she doesn't. instead...
Thanks, I think. It's just... I can't do anything to help people if I don't know anything, right? ]
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week 3, thursday.
elsa doesn't have to follow but IF SHE DOES... here we are. ochako just sits in a corner with her cheeks a little puffed out in frustration. ]
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I really don't think it's worth thinking about with everything else happening. ]
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Hmm. I can definitely see why you would think that.
But... do you think you don't deserve to have thoughts like that, just because bad things are happening, too?
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she's just being bratty about it. she doesn't want emotions ok. ]
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[she hums thoughtfully.]
...But can you stop your heart that easily?
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no... but I wish I could. it's hard to even talk to him when he's like that all the time. ]
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I'm sure you've noticed, but everything he does reflexively isn't particularly genuine. Oh, yes, he's very nice, but, he's... well.
He's got a lot of defenses up, and I'm not sure he knows how to lower them, unless someone knocks them down, or climbs over.
[she hums.]
I think what he needs is someone he can confide in, more than anything else—otherwise, he's going to spread himself too thin.
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I know. I think there's something he's afraid of, but I don't know what, or if I should keep asking him about it. I kind of want to, but...
she shrugs? obviously, ochako isn't expecting that to work.
it's hard to just ignore it, though. ]
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You could try calling him on it, every time he dodges a question with something flirty.
If I had to guess... I think he's afraid of failure.
I think he wants things to go right so badly.
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Don't all of us want that, though? It's not like any of us really want to mess this up... except maybe the ones who we're trying to catch. And even if that is true, that's no reason to act like he does... faking smiles like that. ]
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I think he just needs someone he isn't scared to be who he really is with.
...she pauses, then hurriedly follows that up with:
But like I said, I don't really know him that well, so it's not really any of my business. ]
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[and she leans forward over her knees, ruffling ochako's hair. cute.]
You're doing great.
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At what? ]
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The way you don't compromise, and always try to take on new information, and keep moving forward is very admirable.
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Thanks, I think. It's just... I can't do anything to help people if I don't know anything, right? ]
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You always put your whole heart into it.
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Plus Ultra. It's my school's motto - "go beyond plus ultra." It means to do your best, and then to do even more. ]
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Just make sure to give yourself a little... "plus ultra" attention too. It's not just for everyone else.
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I'm not really sure what that means, but okay. ]
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