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[ not much to do around here, is there. sooooo back to the arcade it is! might as well get the most out of it while they don't have to pay, ehehe.
she spots xl just outside the arcade, and waves him down cheerfully. ]
Hey, hey! Wanna play with me?
she spots xl just outside the arcade, and waves him down cheerfully. ]
Hey, hey! Wanna play with me?
[ he looks so confused, she just laughs. ]
Let me guess - you've never seen an arcade before? There are a lot of you that haven't, huh? I didn't know they were that uncommon anymore!
[ anyway she'll just lead the way in, chattering along the way. ]
Arcades just have a bunch of games you can play! Usually the vintage ones, I think, but I've never actually played at one before now - too expensive, you know? But since we don't have pay here, we can play as much as we want!
Let me guess - you've never seen an arcade before? There are a lot of you that haven't, huh? I didn't know they were that uncommon anymore!
[ anyway she'll just lead the way in, chattering along the way. ]
Arcades just have a bunch of games you can play! Usually the vintage ones, I think, but I've never actually played at one before now - too expensive, you know? But since we don't have pay here, we can play as much as we want!
[ knock knock… where are you xie lian. a good girl is coming to find you, and now she has fresh bandages! nice. ]
Xie Lian-san… did you get your injuries looked at?
Xie Lian-san… did you get your injuries looked at?
Edited 2020-10-08 23:50 (UTC)
[ xie lian has a small smile for ochako when she approaches him. he's set up on one of the couches in the inn with a cup of tea. he's clean, and in fresh (and ugly) space clothes instead of his white robes! ]
I did. It's nothing so serious - merely time will be needed to heal what is left.
[ he's alright! his voice is still really hoarse when he speaks, but eh, whatever. ] And you, Miss Ochako? How are you feeling?
I did. It's nothing so serious - merely time will be needed to heal what is left.
[ he's alright! his voice is still really hoarse when he speaks, but eh, whatever. ] And you, Miss Ochako? How are you feeling?
Good. I'm glad you two got some healing before we made it back.
[ please don't mind her if she limps over to take a seat by him. ]
...I'm okay. It hurts, but it's like you said. I think it just needs time to heal.
[ please don't mind her if she limps over to take a seat by him. ]
...I'm okay. It hurts, but it's like you said. I think it just needs time to heal.
I wish that the two of you had been treated the same.
[ xie lian imagines he would've risen up eventually. that's always how it seems to go; his body reforms itself, bit by bit, just enough that he survives whatever cruel death found him. it would have been better for this young lady, who certainly didn't deserve an ounce of what she saw, to be able to heal.
there's a quiet, reflective pause, before he carefully gestures at the teapot and extra mug or two (just in case; sometimes he's clumsy) beside him. ] Come, have a cup with me.
[ xie lian imagines he would've risen up eventually. that's always how it seems to go; his body reforms itself, bit by bit, just enough that he survives whatever cruel death found him. it would have been better for this young lady, who certainly didn't deserve an ounce of what she saw, to be able to heal.
there's a quiet, reflective pause, before he carefully gestures at the teapot and extra mug or two (just in case; sometimes he's clumsy) beside him. ] Come, have a cup with me.
It's okay. It's... something I'll probably have to get used to, as a hero. And I needed to get better at endurance, anyway.
[ she can't afford to pass out in a real battle, like she did at the sports festival.
at the offer, though, she hesitates, only nodding in agreement a moment later. and once the cup is poured and in her hands to give her something to cling to, she says softly, ]
I'm sorry.
[ she can't afford to pass out in a real battle, like she did at the sports festival.
at the offer, though, she hesitates, only nodding in agreement a moment later. and once the cup is poured and in her hands to give her something to cling to, she says softly, ]
I'm sorry.
[ the way she says that makes xie lian's heart break.
he reaches out, and gently touches his fingertips against her hand, on the cup, steadying, comforting in the best way he knows how. ]
Miss Ochako - you have nothing to apologize to me for. [ it is with soft, genuine emotion in response, as he tries to catch her gaze. his heart aches for her - so young, to see such violence, to have to be complicit in it. she is so young. ] You all did the right thing. I am sorry that we were all dragged into such a situation - and that I couldn't fight off the effects of that faster.
he reaches out, and gently touches his fingertips against her hand, on the cup, steadying, comforting in the best way he knows how. ]
Miss Ochako - you have nothing to apologize to me for. [ it is with soft, genuine emotion in response, as he tries to catch her gaze. his heart aches for her - so young, to see such violence, to have to be complicit in it. she is so young. ] You all did the right thing. I am sorry that we were all dragged into such a situation - and that I couldn't fight off the effects of that faster.
If there's nothing for me to apologize for, then the same goes for you, right?
[ her voice stays soft, though it wavers a little. ]
None of us asked for that. But you and Soo-won-san... you didn't even have a choice in what happened. I probably shouldn't have even used that serum.
[ her voice stays soft, though it wavers a little. ]
None of us asked for that. But you and Soo-won-san... you didn't even have a choice in what happened. I probably shouldn't have even used that serum.
Yeah. I'm not a pro yet, but I have my provisional license, so I can do some official hero work.
[ she doesn't really feel like a hero today, though. ]
Why?
[ she doesn't really feel like a hero today, though. ]
Why?
I'm sure when you and Archer arrived, we must have been in a terrible state, let alone the fact that we were dead. And you took the chance, without hesitating, and revived both Won and I. Despite the fact that there were risks involved - and I'm sure you must have known them - you saved our lives.
Taking risks to save people, no matter how dangerous... that is something that heroes do, Miss Ochako.
[ xie lian's voice is steady as he explains, and his mouth lifts in a small smile as he finishes, dipping his head. ] ...at least, it is to me.
Taking risks to save people, no matter how dangerous... that is something that heroes do, Miss Ochako.
[ xie lian's voice is steady as he explains, and his mouth lifts in a small smile as he finishes, dipping his head. ] ...at least, it is to me.
Maybe, but...
[ she's quiet for a long moment, biting her lip to keep it from trembling. when she does speak, her voice is just a whisper, as her knuckles grow white where she holds onto the mug. ]
...If you two really were the monsters we fought, then it's my fault you died in the first place. I was the one who finished them both, and then I was the one who used the injection, and -
[ i was the one who killed soo-won-san a second time. ]
We didn't know what the serum would really do. All it said is that there would be side effects, but it would revive you. We should have been more careful in using it. We wanted to help you, but... but heroes aren't supposed to - to kill people, even by accident.
[ she's quiet for a long moment, biting her lip to keep it from trembling. when she does speak, her voice is just a whisper, as her knuckles grow white where she holds onto the mug. ]
...If you two really were the monsters we fought, then it's my fault you died in the first place. I was the one who finished them both, and then I was the one who used the injection, and -
[ i was the one who killed soo-won-san a second time. ]
We didn't know what the serum would really do. All it said is that there would be side effects, but it would revive you. We should have been more careful in using it. We wanted to help you, but... but heroes aren't supposed to - to kill people, even by accident.
[ gently, to refute, he adds: ] ...And if you hadn't fought the monsters, what would have happened instead?
[ they would have died. xie lian didn't know what their "monsters" looked like, but he is thankful for it, that he was the one to suffer this - though, there was no "winner", despite what their simulation seemed to think.
the small touch of his fingertips changes; he shifts to put his calloused, warm hands around hers, to hold the cup steady, and speaks with the wisdom of eight hundred years behind him. of knowing this lesson. of learning it, painfully, every step of the way. ]
...heroes aren't supposed to harm others, you're right. But sometimes -- [ he thinks of the king of yong'an, screaming for vengeance against the refugees of xian le, of his sword cutting into his chest and silencing him before he caused an ounce more destruction - ] -- sometimes, for the good of the whole, good people have to do things they would never do. It is a cruel and miserable decision to have to make, and one I pray you never have to make again, after this.
...Your hand was forced, in that situation. I know, like that, I would not have stopped until I killed both of you. Were it not for your unique power, I would have.
[ they would have died. xie lian didn't know what their "monsters" looked like, but he is thankful for it, that he was the one to suffer this - though, there was no "winner", despite what their simulation seemed to think.
the small touch of his fingertips changes; he shifts to put his calloused, warm hands around hers, to hold the cup steady, and speaks with the wisdom of eight hundred years behind him. of knowing this lesson. of learning it, painfully, every step of the way. ]
...heroes aren't supposed to harm others, you're right. But sometimes -- [ he thinks of the king of yong'an, screaming for vengeance against the refugees of xian le, of his sword cutting into his chest and silencing him before he caused an ounce more destruction - ] -- sometimes, for the good of the whole, good people have to do things they would never do. It is a cruel and miserable decision to have to make, and one I pray you never have to make again, after this.
...Your hand was forced, in that situation. I know, like that, I would not have stopped until I killed both of you. Were it not for your unique power, I would have.
[ he's right, of course. ochako knows it, logically, but somehow that doesn't translate to how badly her heart is taking it. she... she's killed someone, and that simply doesn't fit the hero that ochako wanted to become. it doesn't fit her, and her hands feel terribly soiled, even in xie lian's gentle grasp.
her eyes are watery, when she meets his gaze. ]
It doesn't feel like it was worth it.
[ even if it was for the good of all four of them, to make sure that at least some of them would survive... what was the point of it? ]
her eyes are watery, when she meets his gaze. ]
It doesn't feel like it was worth it.
[ even if it was for the good of all four of them, to make sure that at least some of them would survive... what was the point of it? ]
...I know.
[ gods, he knows. his heart aches for her, because someone as sweet and kind as this young lady, hero or otherwise, shouldn't have to weather such storms. he knows, intimately, how it feels to sacrifice, how it feels to cause hurt and pain, when all you wanted to do was help. when all you've ever wanted to do was help.
his hands squeeze around hers again when he sees her teary eyed, and xie lian's brow knits, sorrow etched deep into every part of his expression. ] And to thank you feels wrong - there is no gratitude that could ever make up for the pain that you are feeling right now.
...We all survived, Miss Ochako. Wounded in more ways than one - but we have survived. [ he gives a small squeeze of his hands around hers. ] Sometimes, the strength of a hero comes not from their actions, but from the things they are able to live through. It is the unique burden of one who chooses to save others - that conversely, you will always live with a tremendous amount of pain.
How you choose to move forward after that suffering is what makes the strength of your character, though. Whether it's one small step, or a running start, or even standing in place for a little while, as long as we take what happened and move forward, it will not leave us forever in ruin.
[ gods, he knows. his heart aches for her, because someone as sweet and kind as this young lady, hero or otherwise, shouldn't have to weather such storms. he knows, intimately, how it feels to sacrifice, how it feels to cause hurt and pain, when all you wanted to do was help. when all you've ever wanted to do was help.
his hands squeeze around hers again when he sees her teary eyed, and xie lian's brow knits, sorrow etched deep into every part of his expression. ] And to thank you feels wrong - there is no gratitude that could ever make up for the pain that you are feeling right now.
...We all survived, Miss Ochako. Wounded in more ways than one - but we have survived. [ he gives a small squeeze of his hands around hers. ] Sometimes, the strength of a hero comes not from their actions, but from the things they are able to live through. It is the unique burden of one who chooses to save others - that conversely, you will always live with a tremendous amount of pain.
How you choose to move forward after that suffering is what makes the strength of your character, though. Whether it's one small step, or a running start, or even standing in place for a little while, as long as we take what happened and move forward, it will not leave us forever in ruin.
But what if we didn’t?
[ they did, and she should focus on that. she knows that, and she keeps reminding herself of it, but just… can’t shake the horror of what if. it would have been her fault. she’d dealt the final blows on both of those monsters. she’d administered the injections that transformed soo-won and xie lian. she’d stabbed soo-won.
her own actions had killed someone. not once, not twice - but three times, in the span of a few hours. ]
I… I only became a hero because I needed the money to help my family. I never really considered that - that someone might die because of what I do, until someone did. And I… I decided then that I didn’t want to ever let that happen again.
[ her eyes fall to where his hands cover hers, as the tears start to spill over and roll down her cheeks. ]
But I haven’t been able to stop any of it. I… None of what happened today helped anyone.
[ they did, and she should focus on that. she knows that, and she keeps reminding herself of it, but just… can’t shake the horror of what if. it would have been her fault. she’d dealt the final blows on both of those monsters. she’d administered the injections that transformed soo-won and xie lian. she’d stabbed soo-won.
her own actions had killed someone. not once, not twice - but three times, in the span of a few hours. ]
I… I only became a hero because I needed the money to help my family. I never really considered that - that someone might die because of what I do, until someone did. And I… I decided then that I didn’t want to ever let that happen again.
[ her eyes fall to where his hands cover hers, as the tears start to spill over and roll down her cheeks. ]
But I haven’t been able to stop any of it. I… None of what happened today helped anyone.
[ oh...
his heart breaks for her, listening to her story, as her tears start to fall, and it's all over his face. imperceptibly, he nods a little to his sleeve, and ruoye pokes out, wriggling upwards to nudge at her cheek, wiping away a stray tear. ]
...No, it certainly didn't. [ not what they saw, what they fought, what they experienced. xie lian's somber, solemn in the words that come out of his mouth. there was no point to them fighting each other, except to suffer.
but. ] That is part of doing good, I think: that even doing the best we can in a situation such as that is not "the best" at all. The best outcome we could have hoped for was to minimize the casualties and loss as much as we can, which we did. You did.
[ xie lian squeezes her hands again. ] I think you're a good person, Miss Ochako, and a capable hero. You've showed incredibly bravery today - and compassion, too. To struggle with those what-ifs is a sign of that.
his heart breaks for her, listening to her story, as her tears start to fall, and it's all over his face. imperceptibly, he nods a little to his sleeve, and ruoye pokes out, wriggling upwards to nudge at her cheek, wiping away a stray tear. ]
...No, it certainly didn't. [ not what they saw, what they fought, what they experienced. xie lian's somber, solemn in the words that come out of his mouth. there was no point to them fighting each other, except to suffer.
but. ] That is part of doing good, I think: that even doing the best we can in a situation such as that is not "the best" at all. The best outcome we could have hoped for was to minimize the casualties and loss as much as we can, which we did. You did.
[ xie lian squeezes her hands again. ] I think you're a good person, Miss Ochako, and a capable hero. You've showed incredibly bravery today - and compassion, too. To struggle with those what-ifs is a sign of that.
But if - if I hadn't used that serum, then couldn't we have just taken you both through that door and healed you without having to fight you?
[ neither of them have that answer, but ochako has the feeling that this will weigh on her mind for a long time to come. how much of what happened could have been avoided?
she doesn't know how to respond to xie lian's words. so she sniffles, offering ruoye a saddened, grateful smile, and tries to think ahead. that's what aizawa-sensei would tell her to do, right? ]
...I don't want what happened to us to happen to anyone else. I just don't know what we can do to stop it. The gun should help, if someone's injured, if it doesn't have side effects, too. But to prevent it...
[ she shrugs her uninjured shoulder, helpless. ]
I don't even have my quirk anymore.
[ neither of them have that answer, but ochako has the feeling that this will weigh on her mind for a long time to come. how much of what happened could have been avoided?
she doesn't know how to respond to xie lian's words. so she sniffles, offering ruoye a saddened, grateful smile, and tries to think ahead. that's what aizawa-sensei would tell her to do, right? ]
...I don't want what happened to us to happen to anyone else. I just don't know what we can do to stop it. The gun should help, if someone's injured, if it doesn't have side effects, too. But to prevent it...
[ she shrugs her uninjured shoulder, helpless. ]
I don't even have my quirk anymore.
[ hello ochako!!!
today, xie lian is coming to find you after all of that mess from yesterday... he's heard from san lang a bit about what his group was doing, and wants to make sure that ochako's doing okay.
plus!! he can be helpful, so! he's coming to find her wherever she is, armed with a roll of bandages from the first aid station. ]
Miss Ochako, do you have a moment?
today, xie lian is coming to find you after all of that mess from yesterday... he's heard from san lang a bit about what his group was doing, and wants to make sure that ochako's doing okay.
plus!! he can be helpful, so! he's coming to find her wherever she is, armed with a roll of bandages from the first aid station. ]
Miss Ochako, do you have a moment?
Oh - hey, Xie Lian-san. Sure.
[ why wouldn't she give him the time? she eyes the bandages curiously. ]
What's up?
[ why wouldn't she give him the time? she eyes the bandages curiously. ]
What's up?
I was hoping to chat with you about something rather important.
[ a beat, and he holds up said bandage roll, with a sheepish smile. ] - And, also, to see if perhaps you needed some help changing your bandages. I know that touch is a bit complicated right now, but Ruoye hasn't had any issues with shocking anyone, so I thought, if I could help, I should...
[ your gently doting grandpa has arrived. ]
[ a beat, and he holds up said bandage roll, with a sheepish smile. ] - And, also, to see if perhaps you needed some help changing your bandages. I know that touch is a bit complicated right now, but Ruoye hasn't had any issues with shocking anyone, so I thought, if I could help, I should...
[ your gently doting grandpa has arrived. ]
Oh, well I've got plenty of time.
[ she considers the bandages for a moment, then nods. ]
If you don't mind. It's a little hard wrapping my shoulder by myself, and after yesterday...
[ she considers the bandages for a moment, then nods. ]
If you don't mind. It's a little hard wrapping my shoulder by myself, and after yesterday...
Not at all!
[ with a cheerful smile!!! he's glad to be helpful. xie lian will step into the room proper to let her get situated so they can get on this bandaging mess, quietly instructing ruoye, who slips out of his sleeve and takes the bandage roll as if it was a snake holding it in its mouth. it surely looks a little odd, a bandage holding a bandage, but... you know it's fine. ]
How are you feeling? Is it still painful?
[ with a cheerful smile!!! he's glad to be helpful. xie lian will step into the room proper to let her get situated so they can get on this bandaging mess, quietly instructing ruoye, who slips out of his sleeve and takes the bandage roll as if it was a snake holding it in its mouth. it surely looks a little odd, a bandage holding a bandage, but... you know it's fine. ]
How are you feeling? Is it still painful?
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